"All that you touch
All that you see
All that you taste
All you feel.
All that you love
All that you hate
All you distrust
All you save.
All that you give
All that you deal
All that you buy,
beg, borrow or steal.
All you create
All you destroy
All that you do
All that you say.
All that you eat
And everyone you meet
All that you slight
And everyone you fight.
All that is now
All that is gone
All that's to come
and everything under the sun is in tune
but the sun is eclipsed by the moon."
I’m slowly falling in love with someone. But she is a senior (but she’ll be here for one semester next fall). I know at some point it will most likely break off.
But in this moment, I say fuck it. If she is the one I like and if she’s going to play into it, then I’m not going to hold my heart back.
There will be updates as they happen. Date #2 on Saturday <3
I always go for bluebirds =)
Newbury Street, smell of fall, jazz fills the air
Brownstones emanate warmth in contrast to the cold street,
The smooth crispness of the sidewalk.
The rain to come. City life, college passersby.
Magical darkness, musical silence, the light seems different here
I can feel the choir around me, on the green line transferring to the red
The galvanizing nature of the library, the history
The friends, the night. Take me back.
The innocence slips away, my conscious life has actions
No regret for spontaneity. Whims control
The people of the back bay are cultured – they
Are simply the culture, the defining feature of society
The last hope for art. I am inspired
I am empowered.
I can move alone, through space and time.
Friendships formed from hate, killing the evil
Baking the good to melting bagel bites.
An old friend smiles in a new place.
I would cry if I could too.
But I’ve found my city haven.
#That moment when you know every single word to every single song in the concert, and Scott Stapp points at you at least 6 times throughout the night and makes eye contact. #That moment when you sneak into the VIP section. #That moment when Scott Stapp starts crying during the breakdown of “Faceless Man”. #That moment when you just saw one of your favorite bands of all time on their last concert tour. Creed fan forever.
What a life. I need to be not so fussy in the morning, I don’t want my room-mate to hate me =P on another note, I NEED TO STOP SPENDING MONEY. I understand the draw of buying things now. I’ve never had money to spend before, so now that I have some, I get a little drunk with wanting things that I’ve always wanted and going ahead and buying them. I’ll be okay for college, at least that’s paid for. As long as I can get a good on campus job I’ll be happy.
Lots of new music for iTunes lately. EDM and some hip hop/rap - party music. Creed concert with my bro tomorrow - super pumped for that. Lots of new ableton stuff, but I just need to slow down and really make songs freaking amazing. Like take several days for one song. Like how I do on finale with an orchestral song. At least I have the software now. I am happy about that. The things I have bought ARE useful at least.
Feelings toward Natalie are growing, which is good. But bad too. Summer flings. Its interesting. Its not even FBO. But I mean, it was never going to go anywhere anyways, she’s not going to the same school. But its more for the hangout/fun aspects. Brown will have all new open doors, for everything. New people, new everything. Not worried at all about that.
Party tonight. Actually kind of excited for it. I am going to FUCKING miss my high school buds. I know that now. Can’t wait to get down with them tonight.
On another note, I need to stop leaving things with them though. I leave my Dr. Beats EVERYWHERE which is HORRIBLE. I really need to be better with that or I’ll be screwed in college. Sighpers. Just gotta be more vigilant.
Ran 2.35 miles today. 10 min/mile basically for both today and this past tuesday (1.81 miles). I hate running, which is why I’m doing it.
All in all everything is good, just a few personal issues to work on. But nothing major. Just living life. More posts to come.
the concept of “liking” something is getting to me. not facebook liking. but liking things, like genres of music or songs. or girls. i guess attractions to things, connections in some way.
at this moment everything feels so artificial.